Inspired by David Bowie’s song “Changes” this post is all about the realizations and strange changes I realized will be happening soon in my life. I guess it was also brought about because of my upcoming birthday.
In a little less than three months I’ll be turning 25. I know a lot of people will say, “Oh, you are still so young”. Well, to me I feel like I’m younger. I’m not sure why I feel that way but that’s how I feel. I can’t believe that I’ve some how gone through 3 years of community college, 3 years of university, and almost an entire year of my first year of teaching.
Seven years since I’ve been in high school and I’m thinking where has the time gone. I know I’ve done a lot of things since high school but it still doesn’t feel like it’s been that long. Then with all the ch-ch-ch-changes happening in my life I feel like I’m slightly having a quarter life crisis.
I think it has come about because of having to become a minimalist due to decisions that I have decided to make to reach goals I have. Going through all of my things and finding different trinkets from high school made me reminisce. Then adding my upcoming birthday into the mix made me think lots of random thoughts.
My first random thought was how after this summer I’m not going to have another birthday in the states with my family and/or friends until I’m 28. That’s right people! I’ll be spending my 26th and 27th birthday in Macedonia thousands of miles from the people I’ve spent almost every birthday with. It isn’t a big deal but I think that’s what finally got me to thinking how different the next 2 years of my life are going to be.The only other random thought that’s worth mentioning would be how most of my relationships that I have now will probably falter in the upcoming two years.
Living in another country doesn’t really help foster or keep relationships especially when it is for such a long time. I mean sure I’ll still have a great relationship with my mom and I don’t have a relationship with my dad now anyways so those won’t change. What about my grandparents though? With both in a nursing home who knows if they will make it through the two years I will be gone. Then there’s the already rocky relationship I’m in that to be honest is going to be a stretch to make it through two years being separated. I guess the only other relationship I’m worried about is the one between my best friend that I hardly see now anyways. But, he is moving out west anyways so its not like we would have been hanging out a lot if I stayed.
I guess I just have a lot of thoughts running through my head about this upcoming birthday and everything else. I mean What will I come home too? Will my puppy remember me? How will it feel to have been gone for so long and then just drop back into my old life? I guess I’ll just have to turn and face the (strange) ch-ch-ch-changes.
Have you ever realized all of sudden you’re way older then you thought you should be? Or have you ever been gone for an extended period of time and realized how different everything was when you got back?